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The Necessity of Hope

It’s generally assumed that a proper telling of a story should begin at the beginning. I suppose it only makes sense, we humans like chronological. The problem with the beginning, at least with my account, is that you don’t see the hope, not right away at least.

I’m sure you can relate if you’ve experienced any kind of trauma. Our stories of brokenness don’t usually open with hope, do they? We tend to pull the curtain back only to find that turmoil, hurt, and pain have the starring roles.

I want something else to have the starring role here.

with anxiety and depression

What do you do with anxiety and depression?

Over the weeks to come, I’m sharing my life journey with anxiety and depression: the good, the bad, the ugly, and the in-between. I believe in bringing our stories into the light to share our bumps, bruises, and scars. There is meaningful value in the painful parts of our stories.

However, I try to put the spotlight where it should’ve been all along these days. For that reason, I’m starting somewhere else.

I’m starting with HOPE.

If you glean only one thing from our time together, I want it to be hope. I believe that hope is the single greatest conqueror over fear.

If there is one emotion intrinsic to anxiety and depression, it is hopelessness. It feels like a ride that you desperately want to get off of but can’t figure out how. Before you have even begun, you already feel defeated. This is where anxiety and depression thrive, in the darkness of “I can’t” and “this will never go away.”

I’d love for you to try to make a conscious commitment to walk away from that kind of thinking. But, of course, I’m not implying that you stop feeling or telling you that all your problems will dissolve by thinking positively.

I’m asking you to make room for something else—make room for hope.

The lies in your head will tell you that you are alone, that you are the only one that is beyond help. Those same lies whisper that there is no hope for you. It is just simply not true.

My friend, I want you to grab hold of one truth before we even begin talking about the specifics of anxiety and depression.

Hope is a necessity for healing and change.

There is hope. 

For everyone. 

Meeting the God of Hope

There was a time I truly believed I was the only person who couldn’t be helped. Today, I believe that if I can overcome daily panic, anxiety, and depression, anyone can. I realize that is an audacious statement to make, but we have a truly amazing God.

The comfort and hope I have gained are found in a person that happens to have hope in His name.

The God of hope.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13

He is the God of hope, and our hopelessness and brokenness are His specialties.

He’s not the God of “I, really, really hope that this happens.” No, it’s a different kind of hope. In this verse, the word hope means a joyful and confident expectation. Do you see the difference? He’s not a cross-your-fingers and wishes kind of God. He is a God that we can have complete confidence in.

A God we can put our hope in.

My prayer for you, my dear reader, is that you will come to trust the God of hope with your emotions, greatest fears, and most significant doubts. He’s big enough to take it.

There is always hope, no matter what you’ve been through or how long you have gone through it. 

I also pray that you find this blog and find a safe place for “me too.” Even if you do not experience anxiety or depression, I am confident we all know someone who does. Everyone will most likely deal with these emotions at some point in their lives. I hope you find some valuable information to help in the fight against fear for yourself or someone you love.

Just maybe, you can walk away with a little more hope.

There is a God that is so much bigger than our fears. He is the God of hope.

Where to begin to combat anxiety and depression

I can say without hesitation that you didn’t get here overnight; therefore, you will not do one thing that suddenly changes it all.

When I was in the thick of anxiety and depression, I searched for a big solution. When really, it was a lot of little things that led to the significant change I had been grasping for.

Here are a few things you can do today to start turning the tide:

  • First, begin with hope and move forward from there. Choose to believe every day that things can change; you can change. You are not beyond help.
  • Speak Truth. In the challenging moments of anxiety and (or) depression, your brain will be screaming that you can’t get out of this. You have been believing the lie that you “Just can’t.” These lies have become ingrained in your mind and become a belief system.

Find a scripture or other truth that explicitly combats the lies you believe, write them down, memorize them, and speak them to yourself. Plain and simple; replace the lie with the truth. (I’ll talk more about this in later posts.)

No, it’s not a magic wand. Yes, it takes time and effort on your part. But truth kills lies. Speak the truth, and you will see hope increase.

  • Be okay with where you are. Right. Now. Yes, we all want to be better, do better, and feel better, Right. Now. But sometimes, it starts with being okay with where you are now. Permit yourself to be anxious. Let it be okay for you to feel the depression. You were made with emotions, God-given emotions. Your emotions are not the bad guy. So be okay with allowing yourself time and looking under the hood to figure out what needs a tune-up. You are a complex, unique, remarkable, one-of-a-kind individual. God made you that way. Working out the kinks will take a little time and a little hurt along the way.

And that is okay. Do you know why?

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What do you do with anxiety and depression?

Every day you show up, equipped with the truth, believing there is hope, and allowing yourself to be where you are; you are building up your reservoir of hope.

“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” Romans 5:3-5

There is no shame in hoping.

Find hope. Believe that there is hope. You were not meant to walk this life crippled with panic, fear, and sadness. I promise.

He promises.

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” …Jesus   John 10:1


A necessary disclaimer: I am not a doctor; I am not a professional with letters after my name. I have lived with anxiety and depression for over 20 years. Read about me here. I may have life experience and insight, but I suggest you seek professional help if you feel you need it.

***If you came upon this site and are not sure about this whole Jesus thing, let me say welcome! I hope you’ll stick around and maybe enter the conversation about Him and who He claims to be.

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  1. Christi Wildman says

    January 24, 2018 at 4:24 pm

    That chronological thing is so difficult, because I, too, want to start with the Hope of Jesus that is the saving grace of my story!

    Thanks for giving me the ok to start out with such a thing in my book! I look forward to the rest of your series!

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    • Susan McIlmoil says

      January 24, 2018 at 6:07 pm

      Absolutely Christi, I think that is the most important place to start. I just remember reading stories about depression and anxiety when I was in the midst of hard places and I swear, reading others pain made it worse for me, so I purposely wanted to start with hope. I would love to know when you are done with your book!

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  2. Meghan Weyerbacher says

    January 11, 2018 at 2:40 pm

    Writing helped me in times of battling this as well. It is something we face daily in our home but God is sufficient and shows up in the darkest of times. Thank you for sharing this!

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    • Susan McIlmoil says

      January 11, 2018 at 7:29 pm

      Yes, Meghan, writing/journaling has been huge for me (and my son) in dealing with anxiety. And you are absolutely right, God has shown up and is so faithful to do so! I’m glad you stopped by today 🙂

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  3. Fran says

    January 10, 2018 at 7:56 pm

    Beautifully written. Thanks for openly sharing your heart, there are so many who need to hear what you are writing about.

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    • Susan McIlmoil says

      January 10, 2018 at 8:47 pm

      Thank you, Fran! I appreciate the words of encouragement so much!

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  4. BettieG says

    January 10, 2018 at 5:57 pm

    I am so blessed that I am your neighbor over at #sittingamongfriends today! Throughout my journey with chronic illness (Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, & more) anxiety & depression are frequent visitors. And, the Lord has been so good to bring His HOPE to me too. But I loved this: “There is no shame in hope.” The enemy tries to slither his way in, even when we do have hope, doesn’t he? Thank God for His Word that is the truth about the hope that we cling to! Blessings to you!

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    • Susan McIlmoil says

      January 10, 2018 at 8:47 pm

      Thank you so much for sharing Bettie. I can only imagine your struggle. I have friends with diseases such as lupus and Rheumatoid Arthritis and they say the same thing as you, anxiety and depression become a daily struggle in the midst of a flare-up. Thank you for stopping by 🙂

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  5. Nicki Schroeder says

    January 10, 2018 at 5:30 pm

    I love how you are starting with the most important part: the hope we find in Jesus Christ. Love that you are listening to Him and sharing in the hopes of helping others who are walking a similar road.

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    • Susan McIlmoil says

      January 10, 2018 at 8:43 pm

      Thank you, Nicki! When starting this series it felt so necessary to begin with that hope that only Jesus gives.

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Perhaps grief and loneliness feel closer to you than anyone else this Christmas or maybe your world feels more fearful than faith-filled even though people surround you. If this is your struggle today, you are sincerely not alone.

We may be in the darkest, coldest time of the year—and perhaps you are in your darkest season—but Christmas day reminds us of the promise that the Light is coming to stay. One day, Jesus will return to end the endless winter and darkest night, not as a helpless baby but as a conquering king.

The celebration of Christmas isn’t just the fact that He once came; It is that He has promised to return. No matter how dark the night or cold the hour, His Light shines over the horizon.

Friend, keep faithfully looking to the dawn on the horizon where the Light is and where your hope stands firm. Fear not; this winter won’t last forever, which is reason enough to rejoice this Christmas.

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I know people have made you feel this way—and most likely even your own mind—but you’re not crazy. I promise. The panic that keeps hammering you and the thoughts that won’t stop spinning has a name: They are panic and anxiety. Again, no, you’re not crazy.

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