“These inner battles have prepared you for this moment. You are strong because you are imperfect. You are wise because you have doubts.”
I love history and I love nothing more than a good historical book or movie—I know, wild and crazy, right?—I’m pretty sure you’re getting a really good view of what my Friday nights consist of.
My oldest son is just like me in this way. My greatest hope is not that he becomes a doctor or successful businessman, but rather, a history professor. He’d be amazing in this profession. I love that he searches for truth in history and longs to see what he can learn from it so he can share it with others.
We recently watched the movie, Darkest Hour, together. It’s an incredible movie for any of you history buffs out there.
The heading of this post is a line spoken by Winston Churchill’s wife to him when he is downtrodden and second-guessing himself. It honestly stopped me in my tracks because of the amazing truth it held.
You are strong because you are imperfect…
You are strong because of imperfection…
A few weeks ago I wrote about “hugging your cactus.” In simplified terms, it’s accepting your weakness and working within the parameters you’ve been given.
Contrary to the false belief I held for a very long time, every struggle is not neatly wrapped up this side of heaven. I lived in a fantasy world where a utopia existed at the end of every hard-earned, bloody battle.
Turns out I may have been slightly mistaken.
It is not our perfection that generates excellence after all, but our imperfections. They become the driving force which propels us to move forward and strive for more.
It is the constant beating down and getting back up again that produces substance, strength, and character.
I have an extremely obsessive brain, sensitive personality, and anxiety. I have learned it is a part of my brain that most likely will never entirely disappear. It’s obnoxious in the least, and crippling at its worst. Nonetheless, these obstacles have proven to build within me a tenacity and compassion that I believe I would lack otherwise.
It is the very weaknesses I hate that a loving God uses to chisel my form and build my character.It is the very weaknesses I hate that a loving God uses to chisel my form and build my character.Click To Tweet
So, for this, I can thank Him and continue forward day-to-day. I still seek to overcome these struggles but also understand that this side of heaven they may stay with me.
And I can trust that in the staying, there is a purpose, a powerful God-given purpose.
You are wise because you have doubts…
I have struggled with doubts all of my life, whether it be about my Christian faith or about whether or not someone is telling me the truth.
I never saw this as wisdom and truthfully, I see it mostly as a flaw. But when I chew a bit on the above statement, I realize that there is wisdom in doubts.
Because I can use the doubt to propel me forward to seek out further answers. It also forces me to check myself and my motives frequently.
I have two simple choices when it comes to doubts; I can either allow the doubt to cripple me or I can move forward in discovery and belief. I can only teeter on the tightrope of in-between for so long.
Every doubt I have ever had has led me to the eventual position of having to take a stand. Wrestling through the anxiety and confusion in the process has made me stronger.
You may fear you are the only one, but let me reassure you that you are not. I have had gut-wrenching, anxiety producing doubts about faith, life, and yes, even God. But these doubts and these fears, they are precisely what prompts us to dig deeper and lean into the only One that ultimately has the answer.
Doubts remind us that we are human and that we do not have all of the answers. They drive us to seek out wise counsel, which will either reaffirm our belief or shed light on our misconceptions.
These inner battles have prepared you for this moment…
The inner battles we struggle with are simply opportunities to grow, prepare and ultimately trust an infinite God.
Our imperfections and struggles are prime real estate where resilience, character, and the power of God grow best.
“I know that the experiences of our lives, when we let God use them, become the mysterious and perfect preparation for the work he will give us to do.”
Corrie Ten Boom
Wow. I needed this today—no, seriously. I can so relate to the obsessive brain, sensitivity, and anxiety. And yet most people wouldn’t know that about me from the outside because I try to hide it. Anyhow, our weaknesses do send us closer to God, don’t they? This has never been more true to me than the last few months of struggles I’ve been enduring. Thank you for sharing.
Susan McIlmoil says
Aw, Crystal, I’m so happy to hear that this particular post spoke to your heart today. Yep, we all try to hide those weaknesses that we so often struggle with, I know I have spent a ridiculous amount of time doing this. I’m so glad you stopped by today and pray you will see more of Him through your struggles.
THANK YOU, LORD! GOD RICHLY BLESS YOU, SUSAN!
Sue Donaldson says
you are so right – our weakness is our preparation and our strength – oh, and our pastor is preaching on 4 current movies this summer and the next is Darkest Hour – i’ll send you link if interested!
Susan McIlmoil says
I would love that Sue, thank you!
Wow! Just wow! Carrying this with me.
I have some prime real estate waiting on God!!!! Love your encouragement to embrace the difficult things brewing in our hearts and to always seek the Truth.
Susan McIlmoil says
Thank you so much, my friend! Yep, I can relate, I always have prime real estate waiting on God!
Yes! These things cause us to grow into a greater spiritual maturity. Have a great week!